Hello my loves!
I wanted to share a recent experience that made me realize how true it is that we never get it done and we always have the opportunity to become better versions of ourselves.
I have been in an amazing place recently. Feeling good, having wonderful interactions with people in person, online, and on the phone. I’ve been working a lot to get stuff out into the world that I believe can help people improve their lives and humanity as a whole. Everything has been clicking and flowing and feeling good.
Then last night when my guard was down I found myself spewing negativity from a place of hurt. You see, I have been holding something in and not dealing with it because I believe that it will be hard and painful and maybe out of my control. I have been holding onto this story of mine for years. And I’ve noticed that every once in awhile it just comes out…and I don’t like it.
This morning I woke up feeling horrible and guilty about it. In the past I would have spiraled out of control. Beating myself up for my attitude and my actions. Carrying the guilt and letting it grow and grow.
But now I know better.
So every time it came up for me today I was able to recognize it, be grateful that I could, and let it go.
I was able to be gentle with myself.
In the past I would have regretted it all and hated on myself.
But today I am grateful. I am grateful I have learned how to deal with the guilt. I am grateful for learning how to treat myself with kindness as I would a loved one.
And I am most grateful for the opportunity to recognize and heal this thing that has been festering inside of me.
I know that I am lucky it came up…that it is a clear indicator of the work I need to do.
So I am doing it. I am choosing differently. I am creating the experience I desire by using the techniques I know work for me to release the negativity around this. I am committed to this process because I am committed to always being a better version of myself and living a better life than yesterday.
This is what matters.
This is what is important.
Beating ourselves up does no one any good.
But healing ourselves puts us in a place to be the light for others and to show up as our best selves.
And that impacts everyone around us for the better.
Love to you all…mwuah!